Yes, ermmm... Hello.
Well, another week is over and another therapy session is under my belt. It's all gone a bit strange to be honest. I wasn't really sure what to make of it truth be told. The new therapist certainly had a very different approach to the previous therapist. This one likes asking questions rather than just chatting with me. Who knows where the thing will end up, but I am doing a sleep diary for the next couple of weeks. I'm not sure if this guy is seeing the insomnia as a cause of the depression and anxiety or a symptom. I think we may be putting the cart before the horse a little, but I defer to the experience of trained professionals and will ride it out.
That wasn't the reason for this post this evening though. Again dear readers, the insomnia has taken hold and I find myself with a racing mind.
I had a new book delivered today after recommendations from a number of people.
Guillermo Del Toro's cabinet of Curiosities looks to be a very interesting read and I look forward to dipping in and out of it (it's not really a book to read from cover to cover to be honest). But it has certainly got the creative juices flowing and I realised that I hadn't made anything that wasn't intended to go on-sale or as a gift for friends or whatever for a very long time indeed. I started on a new pair of goggles after my old pair were lost on the Congo river rapids at Alton Towers (a painful story that I don't want to go into at the moment as the wounds are still raw! ;) ) but the lenses were done and the project was abandoned in favour of other stuff. There was the recreation of a Victorian grave bell that I was making up that also hit snags and is still in pieces in my office.
I've come to the conclusion that I need to look into a new and exciting build. One that is not for any other reason than to inspire wonder in others. It won't be for sale, it might not even work, but I have to try.
Now, I just need that one spark of inspiration. That creative fizzle that catches the imagination and sets the brush aflame. This is pretty much the sticking point with the majority of the stuff that I do. It's either derivative, an homage to or (in the very rare occasion that it is truly original) likely to be left unfinished.
It's slightly demoralising, but I am determined this time to get something off the ground that I can say"that's mine that is. Something that people will come across on google images in a few years time and say 'I've just found this, isn't It cool?' I'm talking about my Datamancer laptop or Herr Doktor's space helmet. I did enjoy a little notoriety with my little and larger amplifiers a few years ago, and the large amp is still on the top couple of pages if you do a google image search for Steampunk amp.
But what to make? I have been kicking an idea around for a little while, but it's very large and I wouldn't be able to transport it very easily as most of my stuff is rather smaller and portable...
I think I may need to ponder this for a little while...
Talk amongst yourselves...
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