A few weeks since my last blog post. Thanks for the well wishes everyone. I know that you are still rooting for me even though my head is still saying "They're at the brink of not giving a shit about your mental shenanigans any more, give it up you hack!"
And that in part is the reason for the blog today.
Tackling the problem head on. Taking the medication that was prescribed to me last year by the doctor (Who really does know better than I do despite my protestations).
Everyone has said, if you're sick you take the medication, if you have diabetes, talking about it won't help with it getting better. In this instance I have come to the conclusion that I need to step down off my high fucking horse and listen to the experience of other people. I thought I knew my own mind, turns out I was just being stubborn and pig headed.
So yeah, I might be a bit funny for a couple of weeks as the drugs start to work their magic. I have no idea about how (if any) the side effects will affect me but the more common ones are dry mouth (solution: Have a bottle of water with me at all times) and potential stomach churning leading to nausea (solution: stop eating all of the pies and then I won't have as much to throw up if I need to). which has an added bonus of possibly less food going in my talking hole and as a result, I might lose a little weight which in turn will lead to a boost in self confidence etc. (Hey, I can turn anything into a positive, or not as the case may be.)
I'll still be doing the talking therapy/CBT (NOT the compulsory basic test for motorbikes OR the naughty winky torture for the BDSM inclined, get your filthy mind out of the gutters) and I'll keep up with the blog as and when to chart my progress.
So, here's hoping that it'll be a positive step in the right direction.
Let's face it, it couldn't get much worse than it has been recently.
In other news, I have another magic gig in June so getting back on the horse there too. Who knows where it will go after that as that's the last firm booking this year after other things fell through etc. We'll see. Maybe it'll go on hiatus while I develop some new effects. Maybe, I'll keep adapting stuff to my own nefarious ends, maybe, it'll fizzle and go pop... That's for the future and who the hell knows what the future holds.
Wish me luck guys.
Oh and I've just realised that the blog has now had over 1,000 views. That seems to be a cause for celebration, but then as this about my inner anguish and turmoil, it says more about the ghouls who read these pages than it does about my writing style. You should be ashamed of yourselves and stop reading the blog right away!!!
Please, disregard that previous statement. Don't stop reading the blog!
Ermmm....
Look, hand puppets!
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