Wednesday, 4 June 2014

Two weeks in... There is no spoon



Well, two weeks into the prescription and there have been a few things that have given me cause for concern. I won't talk about all of them because I don't think that is appropriate. Suffice to say that with Citalopram, I began to experience some interesting (although not entirely unpleasant) side effects. There are one or two worrying side effects however. As a person that needs to mark work and give detailed feedback, I have experienced (over the past couple of days) a general fog when it comes to formulating words and marshalling them into a coherent thought process. This is a pretty bad thing as the feedback that I give has got to be detailed and provide the student with a good idea of where they have excelled or where they are going wrong.
The blog is slightly different as I don't need to be quite so focussed with it.
One of the other things that I have noticed is that I haven't been experiencing a balancing of moods, I've been as depressed or as angry etc. as I have been all through this process, but the bouts of extreme emotion have been lasting a shorter and shorter time. This is very much in the plus column as far as I am concerned. I have been genuinely smiling a lot more since starting on the pills, however the bouts of positive mood have been becoming shorter and shorter too. Leaving me with a sort of low grade ennui. I'm not sure that I like it to be honest. But if this is what is necessary to give the therapy a chance to work then I suppose that I have to weather the storm. Concentration has been an issue at work. If I am doing physical work then I am OK, sitting and reading is not going well (back to the problems generating feedback). Prior to the advent of the pills, I had no trouble at all with reading the work of students and generating pages of feedback for them...

so yeah, just a quick update. I'll post something more meaty once the first course has been taken (I still have 2 weeks left of this course) with some detailed pro's and con's as when I was first looking into the possibility of citalopram, I tended to find either personal accounts of negative experiences or clinical accounts of positive experiences... There didn't seem to be much in the way of a personal analysis from both sides looking at it objectively. Hopefully, I'll be able to bridge that gap.

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