For better or worse...

There is a two pronged attack in that statement. The words that you are legally required to speak to your future spouse and the fact that sometimes, no matter what, you can't take it back.

This weekend saw me at my very lowest ebb. I had a large setback with career prospects and on Saturday night, I had what can only be described as the longest and slowest train wreck in history. My mentalism act was beset with problems and despite what others have said about it, it is down to me that it went wrong. 

So, for better or worse, I am not removing the post I put up yesterday as it contextualises how I was feeling yesterday while the wound was still very much open, raw and pulsating. It can be found here: http://nottrikk.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/time-to-take-stock.html?m=1

I have had an opportunity to take stock of the events of the weekend and the 1 positive thing that I can take from this whole episode is that if I can count on anything, it's the support of friends, particularly my best friend. Jeanette puts up with too much. She is always there for me and when I am firing on all cylinders, we are an excellent team. I just want to say here and now that I hope there isn't much worse and considerably more better from now on.

Special mention goes to the grizzly bald headed bloke. What you did was very appreciated and I felt the weight of all of my friends love in that hug.