The continuing Stooooory of a veterinary surgeon that's gone to the dogs

So, I had a doctor's appointment today. That's the third one so far. As it stands, I do feel better about myself and the depression has been diminishing little by little as we go along. Saying that, the anxiety issues have been growing (which came to a head on New Year's Day) to the point that I feel that I've made a step back on that one because I don't want to do things as it might happen again. That was something I really wasn't expecting. In other news, my regular insomnia is back again and I feel exhausted as a result almost constantly. I'm not overly concerned about this however as it's pretty much a regular thing that I've been suffering from twice yearly for almost the past ten years. I won't bore you with the why's and the wherefore's, but it's to do with work and added stress.

I thought I wouldn't be able to handle it this time with everything else that is going on in my life, but I've taken it in my stride which can only be a good thing right?  One of the weird things is that when I am experiencing the insomnia, I find that I am at my most functional. It's one of the reasons I started this blog in the first place. I tried a couple of other things like taking a picture a day of stuff that makes me smile or whatever. That kind of fell by the wayside as I don't have a creative spark in that way. I do take decent photos, but the muse has to be there. With the blog, I can pull emotions out of myself and nail them to a screen no matter how positive or negative that I feel.

So... the reasoning behind the title of today's blog...


Hands up who remembers the Muppet Show? This was the voice over to the opening of veterinarian's hospital with Rowlf playing the eponymous vet. Nowadays, Rowlf is pretty much a forgotten character. He's not Kermit, Fozzy or Gonzo or one of the other first stringers he doesn't get many lines (if any in the modern movies), but he was a big part of the ensemble players back in the day. He was the piano player in the house band of Dr Teeth and the Electric Mayhem, he had a starring role in Veterinarian's hospital. He was even in one of my favourite skits with the bust of Beethoven admonishing him not to hum along with the piece he was playing. He was one of the original Muppet creations, he was right there at the beginning with Kermit and Jim Henson in Sam and Friends. That's where I pretty much see myself at the moment. I'm in the background, getting on with things. I don't have (or truth be told want) a speaking role. I am happy to make up numbers. Rowlf was always the stoic with words of wisdom. I think that may be one of the reasons that he was never as popular as the others. I'd like to think that he was a part of Jim's serious side. The one that really wanted to teach kids and let them appreciate culture. I can be a little serious, but that doesn't mean that I can't let my hair down and play some rock and funk with the rest of the band.

I think what I am getting at is that While this is the normal state of affairs at the moment, please don't think that this is the norm. This is the transitional phase. I may be running around like a loon with my wide eyes and my mouth open, I may be playing Beethoven's "Pathetique" pt 2 and humming along to myself alone. It's still me though.

Don't hum!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t9ApIbDlk9Y

While trying to find the above video clip, I came across a video that I had been looking for for many years. It's not the whole thing, but it actually says a lot. I defy you not to have grit in your eye after watching it. It made me bawl when I saw it originally. the man had that much of a profound effect on my life. He taught me stuff with sesame street, he made me laugh with The Muppet Show he provided me with my life long love of puppetry in all of it's forms (apart from the "of the penis" variety). If just one person believes in you hard enough and strong enough believes in you...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRSptCfn5WY

Sorry, this blog started out talking about one thing and became about something else... But on the other hand, not to be mawkish or anything, "Take what you've got and fly with it" is actually pretty much the point of what, in my cack handed way, I've been trying to say.

Thanks Jim trust you and your friends to distill it down to a soundbite that a ten year old can understand.